You know what is so weird saying that I am thirty years old, now? Actually, telling people I am thirty! The fact, that I am no longer in my twenties is very strange, honestly.
I wish I could tell everyone that I had all these epiphanies as I made this journey through my twenties and as I do believe in some ways I matured more in the past year but, I want to preference this by saying: THANK GOD MY TWENTIES ARE OVER!
I had a lot of major ups and downs in that decade.
I went from being a very innocent, sweet, quiet, semi-awkward girl who just wanted to make everyone happy and I feel like -which makes me feel a bit emotional- to a not so innocent, fun loving, still semi-awkward, hard working, emotional wreck at times, someone who doesn’t know how to handle her feelings or handles them in the wrong way, but still continues to try to make everyone happy, and not so quiet women.
This is what life has done to me and vice versa.
But, it wasn’t always bleak. I had beautiful moments in my twenties that I still cherish till this day – I just wish in certain aspects I was more outgoing and intuitive – but, again that is life. I met a lot of great friends who I still keep in contact with today. I pioneered for five years which has helped mold me to become more upfront and really helped me speak to strangers and socially I think it was the best example that helped me grow throughout the years and for the most part helped me stay more focused in the truth and that moment in my life helped me get through some of the harder moments as well.
I also met my first boyfriend who ended becoming my husband. Through him I gained even more wonderful people in my life who became my friends and family and that has been such a blessing. I moved away from South New Jersey to pursue life in Central Pennsylvania – which I love and I now call this place home. And even though, that stretch of my life has been harder and more challenging and the challenges have been very difficult to deal with at times I feel like now, I am becoming stronger from those experiences. It may have taken me a few years but, you really start to look in the mirror and ask yourself: “you can not go on like this, you need to do something about it, NOW” And that is basically how 29 went for me.
Which brings myself to a brand spankin’ new decade! I have entered my 30’s. And I always hear ones who are in their 40-60’s say: “My thirties were my best years”.
I have faith that I will be able to say the same.